I suffer from Social Anxiety, Generalized Anxiety Disorder, Dermatillomania, Depression, Thrust Issues and Low Self-Esteem.
I was Sexually Abused at age 10.
I Hate myself with a passion.
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Answer:
well I don’t really know how to respond to that, I guess it’s normal to feel bad for other people’s suffering. Maybe I just haven’t met the right people to get out of this situation. I know I’ve had to deal with many horrible cunts, and well sadness and loneliness are very self-imposed. I really hate myself so much that I stoped trying to change. Not like anyone around me really cares so why should I and why should you?
yesterday I took off my shirt after working out, to exchange it for another, and the girl in the gym counter, didn’t stop looking until I put the other shirt on. very similar look.
Should I do something? or say something?
Holy shit I’m a Lonely loser
It’s really embarrasing how isolated I am. I barely say hello a couple times a day. I know what I have to do, yet I keep on avoiding human contact, I really need to get more comfortable around people again. It’s hurting a lot for my job interviews that being around people makes me so nervous, adding to it the knowledge that I’m being judged. Haven’t got a real job in 3 years, in wich I’ve turned pretty much into a hermit.
I’m so embarrased over not being able (or maybe willing) to get a job, over not having other friends, over pretty much doing nothing all day but go to the gym a couple hours a day. That I don’t even try to meet new people.
So I come and hide in my Fortress/jail cell hiding from life, people, love, and just sink deeper in to my fucking hole.
who could be interested in such a little shit?
What I deserve…
It Really screws with your mind when you’re turned in to a 10 year old bottom prostitute, for 20 pesos, by a family member…
and then, used, to give blowjobs, and let them fuck me, all this for change…
It really fucks with your self worth… it screws your self respect… it makes you do things you’re not proud of or even enjoyed… it makes you lose yourself…
And then seeing how the shit that did this to you, is living a way better life than you… I should hate them and not myself… why isn’t it that way?… what could I have done?…
it has made me believe, that’s all I’ll ever be good at… all I’ll ever be good for… like that’s all I DESERVE…
hopeforthebestplanfortheworst:
Hello, im hopeforthebestplanfortheworst. I am welcoming you to my depressing, disturbing world
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